work or not to work and single parenthood

Well it's May 29th and I've had a busy few weeks...... thus why I haven't written in awhile. Plus I'm terrible at it. LOL

Since my last post, I've had a lot going on. At the beginning of May I got a call from my husband while at work asking if I could work from home so he could go to work!!! Yep, finally he was going back to work. It was only temporary- 2 weeks worth. Enough to get our insurance back.

While that was going on, the company who laid my hubby off to begin with was buzzing about hiring him back - what a wonderful thing! Or was it? Long story and the only way thru it is to tell you the whole story. My husband and his brother and his dad all work for the same company just in different facets.
My brother in law is working on this job in Ohio and the job he is in charge of is ramping up June 1st- he and the designer on the job were working their magic to try to get my hubby back to work. However the went around the labor superintendant who doesn't particulary care for my hubby. In turn, since he went around him Bryan got left out of going to Ohio early. Inconvient for us, but Bryan was still working for the other guy.

Ok, working for the other guy-
Happened to be on the night shift. No fun for me. While I was exstatic that Bryan was back to work, which made a wonderful flip in his personality and gave our marriage a repreave from the stress we've been under; I was feeling more and more like a single struggling parent every day. He was working nights and by the time I made my hour round trip commute to and from work every day picking up my son from my girlfriends house I was wiped out.
I would come home and throw in a load of laundry, get Jake's bag packed for the next day, get myself ready for work- I had to get up at 4:45 to get myself ready to leave by 6..........
And so far we still don't have our insurance yet...... Hopefully we'll have that very soon. Jake has a follow up appointment with his pediatrician in 3 weeks and I'll need my perscription if ............
If....... the pregnancy test I take in the morning comes back negative.

Yep I said pregnancy test. I'm not sure - and I want to make sure. I'm scared to death of the answer- given everything I've written above I think you understand why.
Under different circumstances I would be hopeful and elated for a positive answer. However, I'm terrified that the answer will be positive and we'll be adding more stress to our already very stressful, under paid, no work, no insurance (yet) lives.

Ok, so now that we've caught up to today, we've been pretty stressed around here! Bryan FINALLY got paid for the work he did 2 weeks ago. Which by the way, he kinda regrets...... Yes the money is more than unemployment but he just now got the money and is out of work again. And in the mean time while waiting for money that's "in the mail" and unable to collect unemployment we've been worried about how we are gonna pay for anything, no money was coming and no idea where it was going to come from aside from my paycheck.
So, Monday is June first- and we don't know for sure if they'll call him back and even if they do it will be 2 weeks before he get's a first check. However, on the flip side, at least going to this Ohio gig wil be very lucrative for us.

Pray for us as we deal with our woes and worries and help us give it to God who is in complete control.


To be continued.................

Extension of unspeakable gifts

My dear friend wrote a blog about God's wonderful care and unspeakable gift that has been given to her family.
Well I wanted to share some good news that my family has been given.
Even though it will be short lived (about 2 weeks) Bryan will be going back to work tomorrow! I wanted to jump for joy when he called me at work today. The man he worked for at the beginning of last year when he was laid off called and said he had 2 weeks worth of work for him. Probably nothing more than that, but the unspeakable gift is that with him putting in 80 hours, our health insurance will be reinstated. Because my hubby has been out of work since last November he had to work at least 80 hours before 4/1 in our to keep our insurance active. Well, at that time there just wasn't ANYTHING. So we have gone w/o insurance b/c we couldn't afford to add mine and be stuck paying for it until an open enrollment opportunity would allow to get out of it. That's usually only once a year. Anyway, we decided to go w/o the insurance and just pray that we would not need to go to the doctor for anything.
Well what a blessing we have been given. Our insurance will be re-instated because of this work. And seeing Bryan's demeanor just totally change today was like seeing the first flower bloom in springtime! He was just soo excited to go back to work. Please pray that there will be an opportunity to a permant position for my hubby. Good things come to those who wait- I believe that! I just hope that it's not just temporary.

Oh another note- Bryan also found an opening in Anchorage Alaska- nothing too serious, but it's in the field that he's been working in for the past 10 years. I don't want to go to Alaska, that would mean soo many things would have to work out and fall into place for us. But, I'm willing if that's all there is.
Anyway, I'll keep you posted.

Dayna

Pray for us

No pictures this time- I'm soo slow at getting to this as it is- Ther are days I don't feel inspired to share my daily life or personal life on the internet at all. I guess I just don't know what to say- I read so many friend's blogs and they are so eloquently written.

Anyway, down to business.......... Business is exactly the point!
Pray with me as I pray for God's clear direction for our family. Bryan is still NOT working. He has been off for 4 months now. He will have 2 months left of unemployment, but our insurance will lapse by April 1st. We didn't plan on him being out of work for soo long- and it has been a REAL struggle for us. Financially, mentally, emotionally- I think you get the point. My husband is usually my rock and the one who reassures me that we've been thru tough times before and we can make it- but I'm not doing a very good job at reassuring him. It doesn't seem to be enough to praise his great efforts here @ home and w/ Jake b/c that still doesn't pay the bills I can't seem to cover. He's supposed to be the provider- in his mind and he hasn't been and doesn't look like he'll be returning to work anytime soon. Which is depressing- we worry about everything.
I know Julie- my dedicated reader............ I am giving this to the greatest God who has a plan and purpose for this- I'm just trying to be patient and listen and wait for that clear answer as to a direction to take.

As to the direction to take- Bryan has been contemplating going back to driving over the road. When he was married before he drove a semi for a few years to make money and pay bills. When he quit that he went into what he has been doing for the past 10 years.......... Sprinkler work... He is a union sprinkler fitter- he installs fire supression systems........... Well up until Thanksgiving weekend 2008!
Anyway, I shudder at the thought of him not being home and missing out on Jake's & Elizabeth's lives. Plus, what will that do for our marriage? I am not really worried about any problems, I just say that to get my thoughts out - I have been trying to not share my deepest worries w/ Bryan b/c they sometimes only compound what he is feeling.
I just wanted to get this off my chest- it's been building for a while now- and I just ask that you pray for us- and pray that something will come to pass soon. A career change decision, a job opening doing what he did before, something- Please!

I'll try not to go mia for soo long next time

Dayna

worked from home today

I got the opportunity to work from home today. As many governmental offices and many schools were closed today, I had to work.......... However, I got to work from home.
That was a real treat for me. Jacob has become soo much more independant and more fun to be around. He makes me smile in a moments notice. I could be lauging not even at him, but he'll join in and that makes me laugh and smile even more. He is the brightest spot in my day. No matter what is going on or how my day went at work, Jake brightens my day.
I got up @ seven which was VERY nice. I normally get up at 5:3o to start my day.
Then I got to feed Jake which has been handled by daddy lately. I enjoyed working in my pj's this morning. When Jake woke up from his morning nap, we ate and then took our showers. Then, the big one- I trimmed Jake's hair. Sadly we don't have any pics though, because it took Daddy's help to accomplish. But it was a big moment for me............. The first haircut- Awe! LOL
I've really enjoyed my time at home "working".... I really did work, but mostly while Jake was asleep and inbetween losing and getting reconnected to my network. I finally just gave up.
OK, well that's all for now- I'm just in love with my family and especially appreciative of my time watching my baby become a sweet little man.

Not very good at this

Well, I've already typed all this once... So not only am I not very computer savy or maybe it's that I'm blogger challanged......... Either way, I apologize to my dediated reader for disappearing for soo long.

I have kinda been out of the mood lately... Not sure what to say and if I have had something, I just haven't felt like publishing my life on the internet.... I guess I've just been in a rut lately.

2009 has proven to be busy for us so far... I started a new job right before the new year and I'm very busy learing the ropes there.
I do want to say, that since Bryan is still at home that I appreciate him very much. I know it's not his choice to sit at home daily, but he has really stepped up and has taken care of Jake and ALL the daily "wifely" duties while I'm away at work. I know he is cherishing the time with our son, but is probably ready to go back to a man's world. Anyway, I don't say it enough and especially to him, but I want anyone and everyone who may read this to know that I cherish him. He has really taken the reigns here at home.

Well, that's it for now- hopefully I won't disappear for too long.
Until next time.

Dayna